Sorry for the lack of updates recently...

...Things have been really hectic here at the castle.

Apparently, Dad's advisors have discovered that we're not allowed to have Fenrir out on the field fighting right now. He's currently considered a civilian, as he's neither part of the army or hired to fight this war. We can keep him on the field right now, but only to fufil his original duty: To oversee HOWL's homonculi and make sure things are in working order. He won't be able to fight.

In a way, I'm glad. Less fighting means less of a chance of him getting hurt. In another way... He's still out on the battlefield, and now he can only fight if it's for self-defense, if the other side shoots first.

And, sometimes... One shot is all it takes...

Ah, but I digress. Nobody wants to hear me just sit here and be depressed.

On a completely unrelated note, the investigation squad has been tearing down walls here at the castle, trying to find... Ah, I'm not sure I can talk about it here. But, I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about.

Good news, bad news.

Hello all, I've finally gotten back home from the trial, and I bring both good news and bad news...

The good news is that I'm not in some elvish jail cell in the middle of nowhere. Their King was personally presiding over my trial, and ended up getting into an argument with Dad. Bad news is, their argument eventually led to the elves declaring war on us...

I'm starting to wonder why I made a blog if all I've been using it for is to relay what's going wrong in my life...

Uh oh...

I just recieved a letter from the elves...

"Princess Silica,

It has come to our attention that you and several other people in the castle, including Fenrir Flameseeker, Dimona Kakana, and Dr. Damien Artolia, have been conspiring with a group calling themselves "The Resistance," and killed several anti-war elvish civilians in the forest north of your castle last night. This will not be tolerated. You are to stand trial in Elvish court tomorrow at 1:00 PM. Do not be late."

And then it gives an address for me to see them.

What's going on? I don't know of any elves that we "killed," much less WHO in the castle is plotting with the resistance!

I'm so confused...

Good luck, Fenrir.

Just saw Fenrir's blog... Let's all wish him good luck.

I love you too, Fenrir. I'll be waiting at the top of the old tower, playing that song for you when you get back.

A more detailed explanation...

Excuse me for the short post last night. It was very late at night, and I was about ready to go to sleep.

We asked the elves if they'd help us defeat the anti-magic army that suddenly appeared in the forest yesterday. They said that they did not want to participate, because taking such an offensive role against them would only further reinforce the anti-magics' idea that magic-users are tyrants.

We're not giving up, though. We're continuing to negotiate with them.

No luck here...

The elves don't want to cooperate.

I haven't posted in quite a while, have I?

Sorry. Things have been very busy around the castle recently.

I tried playing Halo for the first time a while ago. It was very... quick. I don't think my character stayed alive for anything longer than 10 seconds at a time. Fenrir and Dimona apparently were trying to settle a score from earlier that morning, and I just happened to be caught in the crossfire. The fact that all three of us were wearing the same colored armor didn't help either, I think.

I don't know. I've been trying to get into video games lately, so I'm not left out on all the fun Fenrir and Dimona have, but... I'm having problems finding anything other than Rock Band I can ease into.

On a more serious note... Someone graffitied a Winged Guillotine on the South Wall of the castle a few days ago, as well. When the cleanup crew got there... There was a strange circular symbol that wasn't there before, as well. I recognized it as the same symbol we saw inside the downed elvish ship and on the door of the anti-magic base during our vacation to Crecent Moon Isles... What could it mean?

I did it.

I've told him.

We've found him!

He's suffering from a bit of a coma, though... He hasn't been eating well, and he got hit on the head by a few falling rocks...

Hopefully, he'll be up and running by tomorrow afternoon.

Still haven't found him...

Where are you, Fenrir?

Oh, no...

I couldn't take it. I followed him to the old tower where we usually spend time together...

And he was gone when I got there. I'm not sure where he went, but... there were claw marks everywhere. Did he go wolf?

I've been asking around, nobody seems to know where he went...

Oh my god... Why did he have to go at a time like this? The last thing I said to him was that I've been avoiding him and keeping secrets from him... Oh my god...

Come back safely, Fenrir.

"Dear Silica..."

...By the time you read this, I'll probably be out. You probably know where, but please don't follow me.

I want to know what's going on... you say it's a secret, but... is there really nothing you can tell me about it? Nothing at all? At the very least, please tell me whether or not you'll still be by my side.

Just write a simple 'Yes' or 'No' on the back of this note, and leave it outside my door. That's all I'm asking.

-Fenrir"

He left that outside my door just now. There were big splotches of water on it, like he was crying.

Fenrir... If only I could tell you...

It didn't go well...

...But, I can't just sit here and mope about it, right? Chin up, Silica! You'll figure out something!

Fate is strange sometimes...

Alas, my first blog entry, and it's a sad one. My apologies. I'll try to keep things more upbeat in the future.

I've had to... ah... Avoid a very close person to me for the past few days. I have a secret that I can't let him hear, and, not only am I bad at keeping secrets, I really don't like the idea of keeping secrets from him.

This morning, I planned to tell him that I've been avoiding him, but couldn't tell him why. I walked into the room... And, wouldn't you know it? Him and my little sister were playing Rock Band. In particular, he was singing 3s and 7s by Queens of the Stone Age.

Lie, Lie to my face
Tell me it ain't nothing, that's what I wanna hear
Take your lie to the grave
That's what an old friend told me, look what it did for him
Ooooohhhhh...

I walked up to him, took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and just let it out. "Fenrir, I'm sorry. I've been avoiding you recently. I can't tell you why, but..."

That's when I heard the door close. He just walked out without a word. I think I hurt his feelings.

The truth hurts so bad, wouldn't you say?
So, why tell it?
If ignorance is bliss, then I'm in
Heaven now...

It wouldn't have been the first time a rather appropriate song from this band started playing when one of us tried to reveal a secret, either. I remember that, just a few weeks ago, my little sister was trying to tell Fenrir and I something, and... well... Little Sister started playing.

I don't know. As silly as it sounds, I think someone up there was trying to tell me something. Maybe I should have just lied to him, told him everything would be all right...

Then again, I like the idea of lying to him even less than this.

I'm going to try cooking his favorite food today, clam chowder. Hopefully I can get it right, that's the one thing I can't cook well...

Hello...

Hello Everyone! This is Silica posting!

So, umm... I'm fairly new to this. This is what you'd call a "Blog," yes? And it's an online journal of sorts?

I must say, I find the concept of that interesting!

Anyway, please enjoy!