Fate is strange sometimes...

Alas, my first blog entry, and it's a sad one. My apologies. I'll try to keep things more upbeat in the future.

I've had to... ah... Avoid a very close person to me for the past few days. I have a secret that I can't let him hear, and, not only am I bad at keeping secrets, I really don't like the idea of keeping secrets from him.

This morning, I planned to tell him that I've been avoiding him, but couldn't tell him why. I walked into the room... And, wouldn't you know it? Him and my little sister were playing Rock Band. In particular, he was singing 3s and 7s by Queens of the Stone Age.

Lie, Lie to my face
Tell me it ain't nothing, that's what I wanna hear
Take your lie to the grave
That's what an old friend told me, look what it did for him
Ooooohhhhh...

I walked up to him, took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and just let it out. "Fenrir, I'm sorry. I've been avoiding you recently. I can't tell you why, but..."

That's when I heard the door close. He just walked out without a word. I think I hurt his feelings.

The truth hurts so bad, wouldn't you say?
So, why tell it?
If ignorance is bliss, then I'm in
Heaven now...

It wouldn't have been the first time a rather appropriate song from this band started playing when one of us tried to reveal a secret, either. I remember that, just a few weeks ago, my little sister was trying to tell Fenrir and I something, and... well... Little Sister started playing.

I don't know. As silly as it sounds, I think someone up there was trying to tell me something. Maybe I should have just lied to him, told him everything would be all right...

Then again, I like the idea of lying to him even less than this.

I'm going to try cooking his favorite food today, clam chowder. Hopefully I can get it right, that's the one thing I can't cook well...